How time flies

 Hey, it's surprisingly towards the end of 2024.

I'm currently free at the moment, and remembered I actually own a blog. Revisiting this site feels awkward, because it used to have such a cute theme, with many, many sparkly & animating widgets. You know, that's all my focus went when I was in elementary school. It was a really popular trend back then.

So, hi! I'm in my mid-twenties now, and grateful that I still can log into this account (just bcs I usually  have memory of a goldfish). There's soooooooo much unpublicized stories, lessons and adventures. I envy Atiqah for keeping her blog updated, that's self care! (I used to keep my friends' blog links but guess I've lost them all)

I'll just simply mention what had been happening during these past few years. All in all, the most remarkable event is... we lost Ayah. His cancer was very aggressive & definitely took the best out of him, but we're thankful that we tried everything we could for his health. I couldn't imagine how painful it was for him. He even said everyday he wakes up disappointed knowing here comes another day, knowing he had to fight his own body & thoughts. Let's stop here, and pray for my dearest Ayah. Al-fatihah. Adik minta maaf semua silap salah adik, & adik harap ayah dapat saham dalam semua perkara baik yang adik usahakan ya ayah...

Being an adult is foreseeably difficult, but alhamdulillah it's manageable. Throughout the years, I've met countless nice & thoughtful people, those that are really kind & sincere. And I've been growing gracefully with lots of love, confidence and exciting experiences. There's so much lesson I've picked up along the way, and there's quite a lot of things & people I actually lose.

 I've competed my diploma & degree, and currently working at my second firm. 

The study, the work, were they challenging? You bet, yes there really were. 

Was it all my choices? I would say no, for the major decisions. I pursued accounting just because that's all I know & maybe, pays well. And with my SPM result, many disagreed with my decision to apply for kolej kemahiran. So, I pursued accounting (I didn't know culinary really is a thing, I thought that's maybe my interest but no such course available in my uni lol obv jokes on me). But I've been contented living my life, and it's safe to say that my study years are the peak of my life!

How is it going right now? I noticed that many things had took a toll on me, and sometimes it does feels like I'm going to lose myself. But, life goes on. Got back on my feet, just keep facing it all & surprise surprise it's all on me now! One day, even if I let go so much hope & joy I've known, I'd still live to take care of whatever left with me.

All in all, it's a blessful & priviledged life, I would say. Things could be much worse, but it didn't. Let's survive until we found our next energy & happiness, even if we struggles a bit.

Much love, Shaz.